The only thing about living a free and unique life is having to explain yourself to people. In my unschooling,Christian life I've had to answer a legion of questions and objections from people. Most are well meaning and concerned, specially since they are ignorant to the different reason why I chose to live the way I do. They have not done the extensive praying and searching and researching that led me to certain conclusions. Some people however object just for the sake of contradicting me, or so it seems. Their arguments are ridiculous and idiotic. They just spew out what comes to mind with out first thinking through what they are saying. I try to answer them but it's like throwing pearls to swine, or like arguing with a barking dog about why he needs to stop barking. It's pointless really. Either way, there are times when I am eager to explain to those who truly are interested in learning more about my life. But many times I am just not in the mood to answer inquisitions. How can I sum up in a 30 minute conversation a life time of experience? I just can't. Most of the time people just go "Mm hmm, OK" which to me sounds like "I am just as confused as ever about your choices, but I decided to leave you alone...for now." And when they do that I am ever so grateful that they show some mercy :).
I find so much comfort in my on-line groups be it from yahoo or facebook, ect. It's a huge relief to communicate with people who just "get it". I don't have to explain to them why I believe that I would have to be insane to send my kids to school, or why my dream is to birth at home, or why I believe that God is the one who needs to be Lord of the size of our family and not us. I can just be, be myself, be free and all my fellow freedom pioneers celebrate with me the joys of that freedom, no questions asked.
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